making mixtapes and breaking hearts
every time i become smitten with a boy, i start thinking about making a
mixtape for him. i make a mental list of songs that are definitely going
on the tape. these are usually songs that make me think of that boy,
even if i've only known him for a short while. the more special a boy
is, the longer it takes for me to make a mixtape for him. at least, that
is usually true. sometimes though, i'll get into this groove while
making a mixtape. when it's one of these rare mixtapes that i'm making,
the songs just fall into place. i don't even have to think about it; i
just know what song comes next.
once in awhile, i'll start a mixtape for a boy and only finish making
side a. it's funny how things happen, because with these incomplete tape
boys, i will only get through part of a relationship with. it's just not
worth going on to side b with them. boys i complete tapes for are special.