making mixtapes and breaking hearts

every time i become smitten with a boy, i start thinking about making a mixtape for him. i make a mental list of songs that are definitely going on the tape. these are usually songs that make me think of that boy, even if i've only known him for a short while. the more special a boy is, the longer it takes for me to make a mixtape for him. at least, that is usually true. sometimes though, i'll get into this groove while making a mixtape. when it's one of these rare mixtapes that i'm making, the songs just fall into place. i don't even have to think about it; i just know what song comes next.

once in awhile, i'll start a mixtape for a boy and only finish making side a. it's funny how things happen, because with these incomplete tape boys, i will only get through part of a relationship with. it's just not worth going on to side b with them. boys i complete tapes for are special.